Rainy and too Calm

September 30, 2008 at 1:26 am | In art, bad luck, christmas, japan, vegetarian | Leave a Comment
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A cop pulled me over.

He seemed lonely.

I wasn’t speeding.  I wasn’t swerving.  I wasn’t talking on a cell phone.  I wasn’t throwing mangled body parts out the windows.
I had been looking for a way to get up the mountains along the side of my city again, and I had just given up again.  He asked me what I was doing.   I told him.  He didn’t ask me if I knew why he pulled me over, …and I still don’t..

Loneliness seems to be what it was though.

He asked where I live, how long I’ve been in Japan, how long I’ve been in town…   He asked how I like the city and how I liked the weather.
He asked what I do and if I like my job (I didn’t want to get into too many details with that.).   Then he decided he had better things to do and let me go.

I know there’s a road that goes up the mountains.  I can see radio towers up there, they are huge and they certainly weren’t hiked up.
A month ago I bought a book of maps, but it just doesn’t have any of the smaller roads in it.
The last time I was looking for a road to get up there, I tried a little narrow one, and wound up stuck between industrial sized dump trucks until I got to the lime mine/ dead-end.

If I found the road somehow, and on the odd chance I found anything nice up there, it still wouldn’t stop it from raining all the damn time/ I still get no landscape paintings done…

The day after the 2 day long typhoon was warm and sunny and clear.  It was my first opportunity to get outside and not worry about any sudden weather changes.  (The weather did change, …it just took a little longer).  The problem this time wasn’t that it might suddenly rain down on me.  The problem was, with all the rain from the weeks and weeks of rain, and 2 terribly rainy days just previous – it was so flooded I couldn’t get to where I wanted.  Shame I hadn’t thought of that before setting out on the hour long drive to get there, but I did at least manage to get a nice small painting from the side of the river at the base of the bridge.
The last time I was there I started painting from almost the same spot, but it rained 30 minutes after I got there.  There was a lot more rock in that one, This newer one is predominantly water.

I went to a small beach another day not long after.  It was cloudy but not too too dark.  I was able to paint one good picture there at least.

I went back to my favorite beach on another gray day for a last swim.  I was quite pleased that I didn’t get any jellyfish stings (for once).  I had a good time, found lots of  nice little sea-shells, and my car went all funny on my way back to work.

A couple months ago I managed to have my boss have the car  inspected.  It’s his car, and he should have had it inspected about 10 months previous.  He told me it was inspected and ignored all the defects I cited.
When the windshield wipers jammed together + we had to take it to the mechanic, the mechanic told him it was hardly worth fixing it and cited a number of the same defects I had mentioned.
Most recently the sun visor has taken to dangling down/ swinging all around when I turn/ go over a bump.
That’s not such a big deal though – really, I can pull it off and toss it on the passenger seat when I don’t need it.

What a piece of crap!

This time I told him how the windows wouldn’t go up/or down, and how it was hard to turn right without the whole car shaking, …but he wasn’t interested.
I’m cheap too sometimes.

The next morning while I was driving to the school I had to work at, the turn signals/ blinkers gradually stopped working.  They would blink, then blink slowly, then only blink a few times, then only once.  I thought I should try to use those hand signals you’re taught in driver’s ed., but of course I couldn’t get the windows down.  I decided I would just drive it to the mechanic’s after I finished at that school, but the car  wouldn’t start after I finished.  It wouldn’t even make any of those noises which would indicate it was trying to start.  I had to make those noises.
It didn’t help any.

I had to be back at work in the office in a couple hours, so I called there to see what I should do/ see what should be done.

My boss’s  wife answered, and she started to get angry, like she always does about anything.  She seemed to think I was calling because I would be late to work or something, but I guess she realized I was already finished (as I made a point to tell her that I was already finished and stranded at the school).

She said she’d tell the boss and hung up abruptly.  I got out the book I keep in the car, and the mechanic showed up not too long after.   …I spent the next few hours watching him and his son take pieces out of the car and put them back in.
It was just one large rubber band looking thing that they needed to clear enough space to put in.  I have no idea how much it cost,  I would be only too happy to continue to not know how much it cost/ to not have it taken out of my pay.   The last person to drive this car was an ex-mechanic, who was apparently not pleased to be fired by my boss.  It seems he was the one to switch the wiper blades to jam.  My boss is much better at inspiring thoughts of sabotage than loyalty or confidence.

A couple days after the car was re-repaired, he asked me to come to work 20 minutes early (not 4:50, but 4:30).  I showed up at 4:30/ 20 minutes early, and he was angry because he told me to come at 4:20, …which he didn’t.  He says that he wants to replace me with someone less calm; Also his wife calls all the shots and she is insisting that he replace me.

I was happy to hear it.  I don’t need to put up with all these empty accusations.  Waking up in the morning has gotten a lot easier.
The worst part of it, seriously, was that I had just stretched and primed a big piece of canvas I had been saving/ waiting to paint.  Oil paint can take a month to dry, and with just a month and a few days before I finish here, I had to break it apart without having made so much as a single mark on it.

He said I would finish around October 25th so that he would have enough time to find a replacement, and so I would be able to finish the English show at one of the schools.
I asked him before what I’m supposed to do, and he told me something along the lines of: “School, five minutes, show, in early morning, something…, playing, dancing, saying, speak English, on stage, parents watch, please practice “
I asked if they had a plan at that school, or if I had to come up with it and he said: “Ma, you talk, ma, school tell, you, help, practice, ma”.
He gets frustrated when you ask him questions/ try to get him to clarify, so I never want to ask too many.

I decided I should ask at the school instead, but  neither of the teachers of the 2 classes knew anything about it at first.  A couple of weeks later I asked again, because he kept bugging me about this thing he never seemed very interested in explaining.  The one teacher said she wasn’t going to do any English thing, but the next teacher said: It was not 5 minutes, but an hour long (an hour for 5 year olds to perform in a foreign language they don’t understand? – Weird!).  It was not in the morning, it was at night, etc.
I asked them to please inform my boss (who had told me: morning, 5 minutes, other things that are as likely horribly wrong).
He had since informed me that I needed to write something like a play with music (about 5 minutes still). I did it and I brought it with me the next time I was there.  We practiced one time so far, and I go back there 2 more times before they’re supposed to do it on stage in front of their parents (for an hour?).  3 times for 5 year olds to memorize everything for a short play – That should be sufficient.

That should also be my last day – as he had informed me, but then he’s put me on the schedule as far as the 31st – perhaps longer.

It would give me more time to paint outside if it would ever not rain continuously through my days off.

There’s a pretty friendly girl in her 20s that works at my company a few days a week.  It turns out that she doesn’t like working there all that much either.  She said the boss’ wife had been, or is trying to get him to fire/ replace her too.  I told her there’s no reason she should have to put up with all their crap.
I didn’t see her there all the next week.

I got to thinking that this would be a good time for me to go back to New Jersey and visit my family, maybe the grand canyon…
I could find another job here, but going home for Christmas for once is and has been my highest priority for years.  Something always comes up and prevents me from going.   This year I‘m absolutely going.
Upgrading jobs and working conditions had made it so I haven’t had a real vacation in years, …not since I went back to visit my mom when she had cancer.  (She wrote a few days ago to say she thinks her cancer may have come back.)
I was even thinking of going home for a bit and trying to get myself into one of those programs to get certified as an art teacher in the U.S./ get a job I won’t hate and one of those cheap houses the market is flooded with…
But it seems that Bush has started a new depression and thousands and thousands of people in the U.S. are going to out of work very soon.

I had already made plans to go back up to Saitama to visit my girlfriend before I was told I would be replaced, so we decided we should stop at the American embassy in Tokyo that weekend to see what we would have to do to get her a visa so she can come live with me in the U.S. if/ when I go back.
I brought a lot of things I had in this house to store at her house – to make moving out easier.  She seemed pleased to get all my curry spices, vegan seasoning, and my mostly untouched bottle of vodka.

It happened to be an old coworker friend’s birthday that night, so we had a small party for him.  It was supposed to be a bigger small party, but both the other girls I’d invited canceled that day and said they had to stay home to take care of/ go visit sick relatives.
We tried to go to another bar after the first one, but the ones we’d had in mind were all closed early on Sunday nights.

That probably made it easier for the 2 of us to get up early to make it to the American embassy, but it didn’t feel at all easy.
While we were switching trains my girlfriend realized she’d left her bag on the shelf above her seat.  We had to find the office were we could report it missing, report it missing, wait for it to be found at the last stop, take the next train to the last stop, find the office where they had her bag, get her bag, and get back on our way.
It left us with very little time.  I tried to warn her against running towards the embassy in sight of any of the many guards always outside.  The 1st one she tried to pass stopped her, but didn’t ask her nearly as many questions as any of the cops who have ever stopped me.  I didn’t think it prudent to give the guards any reason to detain us.  American security forces are never very cool, but these were all Japanese natives.
We got in about 5 minutes before the embassy closed.
Getting her a visa would necessitate us getting married beforehand, so we got a notarized form that says that I don’t appear to be married already, so we can get married, so she can get a visa.
I had to put in lots of personal information and swear before some woman who said she was an officer (an officer of what I don’t know).  She made me hold up my right hand and asked: “Do you swear that all the information you have put on this sheet is complete and true to the best of your knowledge?”
“Ah, …yup”  I said.  She gave me back the form, I gave it to my girlfriend to keep it nice and safe.
The catch to all this is that the notarized form ($30 and a long pain in the ass train ride each way), expires 90 days after issue, so we have to file it at her city hall with marriage papers sooner than I would otherwise care to do.

It was rainy all that day too.  We stopped at an all vegan pita restaurant I’d found when I had to go to the embassy for the passport I’d lost.  The inside of the shop is covered in white flour, so everybody eats outside, even on rainy days, under a drippy umbrella.  It was good food, but we didn’t want to be outside all too much that day.
I proposed we waste a rainy day filing marriage forms in her city hall, rather than waste a perfectly good other day, but then I remembered getting married would void my Japanese working visa within 14 days unless we went to city hall and another government office yet another city.  It closed too early for us to make it.
Doesn’t all that sound terribly romantic?

She apologized several times for forgetting her bag on the train.  I told her it really didn’t matter since we made it there and got everything done on time anyway.
I forget things sometimes too.

I wouldn’t have thought that principle needed demonstrating so quickly.

We drove up to my favorite Indian buffet for dinner, and stayed overnight near there.
I love Japanese roadside hotels!


We found this all pink one with pink palm trees lit up all around it, but there weren’t any vacancies.
The one with the statue of liberty on the roof looked a little too old, the one with all the greek statues in plastic boxes on the staircase was too expensive, so we settled for one that had a little waterfall in the parking lot.  The pink one would have been better really…
When we got back to her mom’s house the next day I realized I had left my white cell phone behind on the white pillow, so she drove us all the way back again.
We do make a fairly well matched couple at any rate.

While I was away for a few days, one of my adult students found out that I would be leaving, and told a guy in the next town who owns another small school – who is looking for somebody to hire rather quickly.  I knew nothing of this until he sent me a message asking if I’d be interested.  I went down there and he mentioned the hours and a house on the beach and I was interested.

It’s about $500 less per month, but that house is $150 cheaper, and I wouldn’t have to drive 20 minutes to an hour to different places 3 times a day.  Shorter working hours./ More days off./ The rank stench of pig excrement I suffer here, would give way to a salty coastal breeze there…

Who WON The Debate? Bloated Military Budgets WON! Peace Lost.

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“Real Time” debate follow up with Bill Maher, Featuring: Ralph Nader, Tim Daily, + Lisa Schiffron. September 26, 2008

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60 + years of Failure!! Let’s stop voting for Republocrats.

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2008 Open the Debates rally during the Republican National Convention in Minnesota on September 4, 2008. In this highlight reel you can see excerpts of speeches by Ralph Nader, his VP Candidate Matt Gonzalez, and former Minnesota governor Jesse Ventura talking about open debates and how they impact elections.

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Shallow Stream – Deep Wood / the Pride of No Place

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Swim with the Jelly Fish/ Why I like the beach

September 4, 2008 at 10:55 pm | In art, bad luck, japan | Leave a Comment
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On nice days I go to the beach, and those Fu@%ing jelly fish! You never even see the bastards, but they Sting!

There have been 3, …maybe 4 nice days in the last month. The whole rest of the time it rained. We’ve had lots of promising looking blue patches in the sky but the grey keeps on beating them out.

Half the time I drive around with my backpack full of paint and brushes – hoping there’ll be a good sunny hour or two.

Maybe 30 minutes at 大鳥峡 and the blue patch I was pulling for gave up. It drizzled as I packed up my paints, and poured as I hiked back to my car.

30 minutes at Sakurajima – and the top of the mountain got swallowed by a cloud, which waited a few more minutes before raining, stopping, and raining and stopping again. I’ll assume that some of the people who stopped there in the rain to watch me were art enthusiasts, but some of them probably just wondered what the mountain they’d traveled to see – looked like.

One day it poured and it shined 6 times in rapid succession.

It was only rainy then sunny 3 times so far today; Raining now.

Rain and paint just don’t mix well.

Paint outside on cloudy days and you wind up with dismal dark paintings…, so I haven’t been as productive as when I 1st arrived here.

Mind you, 2 paintings a day, 4 days a week is difficult to maintain – even if the weather is nice.

I make it a point to go down to the beach any day that I have off. The water there is so warm, it has to be at least partly heated by the volcano (Mt. Sakurajima) up the road. It is of course cooler in the rainier times. And you’ll probably get stung once an hour. (Jellyfish)

When I lived in Saitama, my girlfriend would visit me most every day.

My new best friend, is a giant driftwood log. Every time I go to the beach I go find my log, roll it down into the water, then swim around it/ hang off it like an otter. Ask it how it’s been, tell it about the 1 yen coin I found, …It’s a good log.

2 sunny days this weekend, so I painted 4 pictures on the beach – and got stung 2 times.

Fu@%ing Jelly fish!!

I used to bring my goggles to the beach, but there’re no fish and no plants to see. Long ago I was throwing the jelly fish I found washed up on the beach – back into the sea. No I don’t see them on the shore anymore. Maybe they’ve learned?

I don’t know if I would repeat my kindness to them if I saw any more washed up on the shore. I hate those damn jelly fish.

Something else I found on the shore just after I finished painting one day:

A mother and a little girl were building a sandcastle just a few feet away. It might’ve been funny if I’d asked the mother to take this picture for me.

I wonder where the rest of this rubber woman went to….

Anyway, I like the beach.

Despite the Damn Jellyfish!

Something/ not painting – that I have accomplished lately:

I cleaned my house.

Also, I moved into a newer nicer, much much much cleaner house. (That is the one I cleaned.)

New house video:

For some reason there was no mailbox at this house. All the other houses have little metal boxes nailed to the sides of them – mine just has a number of nail sized holes. I thought it odd that somebody would take a mailbox with them when they move, but then I went to a hardware store + saw how much they were charging for those little metal boxes.

When I went to the beach later that day I found a large plastic jug + thought I might be able to make it into something like a mailbox.

I did that “successfully”, though it nearly cost me the tip of my pointer finger. I only have a folding/ swiss army knife – which folded itself about a fifth of the way through my finger and nail when I was trying to cut through the plastic.

I’d like to say I learned from that mistake. I couldn’t use that one finger for a few days./ I gave it up for 2 weeks, then got 2 more bloody gashes, before I finished the job.

I’m happy with it/ and mostly healed now, …although I never get any mail.

My job here, I’m not wildly pleased with.

The 2 and 3 year olds just sit there with their hands in their mouths/ their friends mouth/ their drool spilling out of their mouths. The older kids have learned how to punch, and they often seem to want to practice on me. This one little bastard took a running swing at my balls (which are at just the right height for a little kid’s arms). That hurt for hours, but I can only twist their little arms for a few seconds.

“It’s not English class unless somebody cries”.

Some of them think I’m gym equipment, some of them think I’m a petting zoo, some of them think I’m an Un-dress up doll, some of them just sit there and drool.

We played a game today where I had to chase some kids. I lunged at a little fat kid, and my pants ripped, and they all laughed at me. I missed him too. He was slow, but slippery.

The place where I once had to spend 20 minutes trying to get 2 mentally handicapped children off of me, so I could try to quiet down their 50 otherwise unsupervised classmates,…

It had improved significantly.

Hardly anyone ever tried to take my shirt off of me anymore, and they hadn’t given each other any serious injuries in a month. One time (within that 2 month period), the school’s principle looked in, and everyone behaved until she had gone (almost a whole minute). She canceled my company’s contract a few weeks later saying: “the kids aren’t having fun”. I was astounded! Those damn kids had soooooo much fun. I was only ever able to keep them from breaking bones/ shedding blood. I could understand if she’d said they weren’t learning anything. I could hardly hear myself over the din a lot of the time I was there (…they

This ticked my boss off.

I like money, you like money, he’s really really concerned with getting and keeping as much money as possible. He’s also pretty stressed out. I was hired to replace 2 people, and I think he had employed even more before I came.

Everything is, of course, my fault though.

The day before those people canceled that contract I had been talking with the only other foreign teacher he has. One of the reasons I switched to this company was so I could go back home for Christmas. This other guy too, seems to want to not be stuck having little kids try to stick their fingers up his ass on the most celebrated day of the year.

My Boss said only one of us could go home for Christmas. The other guy here really wants to go, and I value going -more than I value my job certainly, so it’s an easy decision for me – as to what I should do. Fa-La-La-La-LA!

Unfortunate about the timing though really. I don’t know what the deal was with them canceling, but I know why I’m not going to work through Christmas.

This other guy had to go and do my last 2 afternoon classes at the place that canceled. Because he and I are the only teachers, I got sent to do his 2 afternoon classes, plus his 2 night classes. I still had to do my own night class on top of that. Canceled classes means a short term increase in classes.

His anniversary was a week ago, so he asked me to switch one of his later night classes for one of my earlier night classes. It’s a pain for me to have to sit around for an extra hour, but it was his anniversary. The part that irks me, is the student I was supposed to teach called a few minutes before his class to say he forgot he had to come that night. So, the other guy got to leave 2 hours early, I had to stay 2 hours late, AND make up for the extra class the other guy didn’t have to teach the next day.

That was the day my girlfriend flew down from Saitama to see me. I hadn’t seen her in over 2 months, so my boss, who likes money, looked upset that I didn’t want to leave her outside for an extra hour and 10 minutes ,in the perpetually raining weather, in an unfamiliar area, with a heavy suitcase to drag behind her, so he could let somebody else come in and bore me a little later on a Saturday night. I’ll take care of your girlfriend he said. “She doesn’t like creepy old men” I thought, but decided to just stick to: “No Way”, and “You don’t know what she looks like.”

He was starting to get mad at me refusing it, when I suggested, as calmly as always, that he could just have to guy come earlier in the afternoon. Which was no problem for him.

As for the Christmas thing, he has wisely resolved to allow me to take off. As I had said, I would have taken off anyhow. He’s decided that he will let me use my vacation time to go, but all of my classes from now until then will have to be 15 minutes longer each, …so he doesn’t have to refund anybody any money.

That I’m going, is of course, the most important thing, that I’m using up all of my paid vacation time, when I’m being forced to do most of that work beforehand – is less than ideal.

I complain, but then I took a peak at the other guy’s schedule + it’s a lot busier/ he has more to complain about than me.

I took a look at my new monthly schedule too, and found I had one extra class. My boss never wrote where that class is… I asked him that morning, and he said it was there in the office. He moved the time of my next class back 20 minutes – I thought – so I would have just the time I needed to make it there.

I finished my new class + hurried the 30 minutes distance to my usual class – to find my boss there. “What are you doing here?” I asked. “What are you doing here?” he asked.

He hadn’t written a location for that class for me, nor had he given any indication that I wouldn’t be going there the same as always, + I assumed it was the same place as always. But it wasn’t.

He was/ is mad because I didn’t read the empty spaces the way he didn’t write them.

The funny part was that I left the stuff I need to teach at the school I wasn’t supposed to go to, while I was cleaning it.

This morning I went in the office, …because I have to go in the office every morning – in case he needs anything. He never actually does need anything, but he gets mad when I don’t go and tell him that I’m going now. He wasn’t there today, but his wife was. His wife asked me where I was supposed to work today + I told her + she got mad.

“Oh no, That’s 20 minutes away” she said.

“It’s 15″ I said.

“Can you really make it there on time?” she said.

“Absolutely” I said.

“Can You really?” she said.

“Yes.” I said.

“You can make it there on time?” she said – again!

“It’s 20 minutes away.” she repeated.

“It’s 15 minutes away, and the clock you’re looking at is 5 minutes fast.” I said …slowly.

“I don’t think you can get there on time.” was what she said next.

+ these are the times that I wish my Japanese was better.

If someone you knew was running late – do you think it would help them, …or, perhaps, make them later – to ask them the same dumbass question over and over and over.

I got there 4 minutes early, and I wanted to call her in the office to ask her where I was and what time it is.

It was nice to have my girlfriend over for a few days anyway.

She thought it smelled awful here too, but she has no idea how bad it can be.

This time she stayed up 'til 12!

This time she stayed up

We went to where the 1st Emperor’s grandparents are interred. It started pouring as soon as I parked the car. We went to the waterfall + saw lots of those weird orange cave crabs. We went to the beach and swam out to the shrine on the rocks. We went to the Indian place in town, and both felt sick the next day.

We went to Kagoshima city, bought a few art supplies, souvenirs for her mom and coworkers, then hurried back to the volcano side, to get in my mini car and drive like mad to the airport.

I was pretty mad too. We had to stop and ask directions twice, because there were/ are no airport signs at 2 of the intersections you have to turn at.

I drove for just under 2 hours – which should have been about an hour and 10 minutes. We got to the airport about 10 minutes before her flight. The people at the check in counter told her that she needed to be there 15 minutes before the flight, but they gave her a ticket for the 1st plane the next day, and I bought a map at a gift shop. We found another Indian restaurant and a hotel a few minutes away. I was glad to get to see her a little more, + dropped her off the next morning before my 2 and a half hour drive back to my city before I had to start work.

It rained again while I was getting ready to go out painting.

The next day looked nicer, but I decided I would just go for a swim instead. The Jellyfish stung me 2 times!

9/10 Impeach !!

September 3, 2008 at 12:03 am | In Uncategorized | Leave a Comment
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